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Hey, guys! It's Lucy here. Anyway, it's been a while coming (I admittedly had to scramble for the past two AC checks, which isn't kosher) but after two years in the game I'm going to be dropping Ikki - and thus Luceti as well. This was the absolute best place - and the absolute best cast! - that I could have picked as a starter to Dreamwidth (since this was my first Dreamwidth rp) and I will never regret doing so, and I'll miss you all a lot, but.
If you would like a letter from Ikki, comment here letting me know and I'll see to it - you may also get willed one of her "treasures", depending. Soren, for his part, is going to go to Raven due to Raven's strong CR with both Ikki and Soren.
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If there are any ongoing threads of ours that you would like continued to finish, please let me know which ones those are and I'll make sure to see to that as well.
If you would like a letter from Ikki, comment here letting me know and I'll see to it - you may also get willed one of her "treasures", depending. Soren, for his part, is going to go to Raven due to Raven's strong CR with both Ikki and Soren.
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Loki,
I've written a few of these letters but I don't think I'm getting any better at it than I was for the first few, so I'm sorry about that. I've never been that great at writing letters anyway. It's one thing to write in the journals, where you just write a few lines and then you wait for a reply, so it's not just you writing alone for ages and ages until you're done like you're writing a letter and throwing it out the window. It's another to write ages and ages until you're done and then throwing it out the window. Not that I'm going to throw this out the window. Actually I'll put it in my toy chest.
You're probably supposed to make sure everything connects up instead of just writing whatever, too, but I'm bad at doing that. I think if I had to do that I wouldn't write anything t all. So I'm just going to write what comes to mind and then I'll seal this and put your name on it and if it ever needs to get sent, Grandpa should give it to you. I don't know if it ever will or won't be. I've been here two years almost, and I sometimes think I'm never going to see Air Temple Island again.
You're good at illusions and the Battledome, right? I drew lots of pictures of Air Temple Island and put them in this letter. Grandpa didn't see them. If you can, try to make something to show it to him. I'm still not good enough at making the scenarios to try to do it myself. If I'm not any better at it by Christmas, I'm going to ask you to help me do it. But if I'm not here by Christmas, you have to do it for me.
I guess when Christmas comes, I'll probably have to rewrite this letter. Do people just keep writing and rewriting these as time goes on? So that when they leave, it's saying things that still matter.
Well, I think all the things I say probably still matter. I'm saying them to people I care about.
Thanks for playing with me and being my friend. I know lots of people don't like you and don't get on with you, and I've heard lots of things about what you have and haven't done. But you've always been nice to me. You knitted me a scarf, even. I think sometime you should tell someone you knitted a scarf for me, because I think most people couldn't picture you knitting. Maybe they'll make a face that'll make you laugh.
I probably should have asked how you say goodbye to people before I started these. But that would have worried everyone. I don't like to worry everyone, so I make sure I don't. I don't talk about daddy and mommy and by sister and brothers as much as I did when I first got here, because I think it'd start to worry people. It's harder to talk about them now than it was then. I think when I first got here, I thought I wouldn't stay for long. It was going to be a great adventure, and then I'd go home and mommy would make me tea and everyone would listen and maybe not believe me. I didn't think I would be here this long without them.
Sometimes at home I would run away. I never got very far and I never went anywhere very long. It was after Jinora and Meelo would pick on me, sometimes. I never really ran away. I don't think I was even really running away. I guess really I was just going somewhere to be alone. I counted all the trees on our island once, without either of them. There's a lot. 10,552. I wonder if there are any new ones now, though.
I haven't recounted in two years.
Did you ever count the trees where you lived? I keep meaning to ask you, but I never do. I want to count all the trees in Luceti, too, but so far I've only gotten through the ones around the village. I can't go that far alone, and too many of the trees are in places I can't get to now. Someone should count them all someday, though, all the trees in the barrier.
Next time you get bored, you should do that. I think it's important to know about trees.
The medal you should have gotten was made for me by Ralph. He was here a long while ago now. He always said he was a bad guy. Did you ever talk to him? I think that people are what they want to be, though. To be a good person, you have to try really hard. That's a lot of what we do at home. We're pacifists, the air nomads. We don't eat meat, and we don't start fights if we can help it.
I have to work hard on that one. I don't start fist fights or anything, but I know sometimes I start fights with people. I used to annoy Jinora and Meelo at least as much as they annoyed me. I guess sometimes I got jealous, or maybe it was just that when you're with people every day, it can be hard to get on with them. When you're siblings. I think I would do better about it now, but I can't be sure.
I've still never had a single nice conversation with Mr. Vegeta. I have to work very hard on not fighting with people when it comes to words. I think I have become better about not saying the first thing to come to mind, but whenever I talked to Mr. Vegeta I always said the first thing to come to mind anyway, and it was usually rude.
I'm not sure if that makes me a good air nomad or not. That was probably wrong.
Next time I talk to him, I'll try to say something nice. It will be hard, because his face just makes me want to say rude things, but I'll try. Maybe tomorrow I will try to say one nice thing to everyone I meet. It's not that hard for most people. I have lots of nice things to say about everyone here. But I'm not sure what I should say about him. His face is annoying.
For you, it'd be easier. Thanks for teaching me about horses, and for playing with me, and for being my friend. Thanks for baking cookies and everything. You're fun and smart and I'm not sorry I started talking to you, or that I kept talking to you after.
Don't tell Grandpa about the Mr. Vegeta thing.
Love,
Ikki
that's okay i didn't need my heart, wasn't using it anyway.
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He's supposed to get her set of hollow balls that will whistle at precise pitches if she moves them around with airbending, and also have tuned chimes inside (Loki, handmade, Ikki's 2013 birthday), since he's the only one who can use them. Also the five small wind-up figures of Ikki's family, Ikki's 2013 birthday present from Asami (these are much more detailed and finished than the ones in her toy chest). ]
Grandpa,
I dunno why I'm writing these except that people have been going away the whole time I'm here and I've gotten things from people who left. Letters and presents and memories. I dunno if they help or don't, but I like to keep them. All the letters are in the chest we picked out together. You're allowed to read all of them if you want, if you read this. And my diary, too, but you can't share anything I wrote there ever. Only you and Katara can read it. And you're not allowed to get me in trouble for any of the times I sneaked snacks if you read it.
I guess if you read it you can't get me in trouble for them anyway, unless you read my diary when I'm still here, but I don't think you'd ever do that. Sorry I snuck snacks. It always seems like a really really good idea at the time. I never break any of the other rules. Promise.
Hey, do you think we remember things when we leave here? I know we don't, but it seems weird we don't. Do you think our hearts remember, though? I can't really picture not looking at birds and thinking of Soren, or not reaching to my wrist or my neck when I'm worried and playing with the prayer beads or the pendant Raven made me that first Christmas. I can't imagine not thinking "oh, Christmas is coming" for winter. Which is weird, because I never bothered with it and I've only seen two. But right now it's summer, and then it will be autumn, and then it will be winter and Christmas. And then spring, and Valentines.
Last Christmas, I got stuck under the mistletoe and you got me out. Remember? I bet this Christmas, we're all going to get stuck under the mistletoe again. This Christmas, I'll rescue you at least once. I'm going to be dramatic and daring. Maybe I'll strike a pose??? I'll practice it, so you'll be really, super impressed with me.
I dunno if I'll fit in my body at home. I mean, not just 'cause I'm taller. I feel older, too. Well, I am older, but that's not what I mean. I dunno. It's not something I know how to explain I guess, so I don't think I'm going to try. It's just weird to think we can be whittled down and shoved in without pieces getting left behind. I think if I go home ever, I'll look at birds and remember a feeling, or reach for something that's not there. Or maybe seeing your statue will feel different than it always did. I always liked the statue, but I didn't know the things I know now. When I looked at your face it was always with the stories everyone said and I didn't have any of my own. I have lots of stories now, and I think that changes a face when you look at it. Doesn't it? I could be wrong, but those things feel like things you can't erase. Like when you mess up on a math problem in ink, and then you have to make it into a flower or something, only Sifu Raine probably knows all the doodles are actually wrong answers, even if you put the right answer beside the doodle.
I've made more right answers than wrong ones for a while now. I don't think I hate fractions anymore. Does growing up mean not hating fractions? I still haven't started to mind not being part of the Valentines day stuff, although it's fun to watch, so I guess maybe I'm not that grown up.
I like having my own room, but I like that it's connected to yours. I think every place should have a firepole. We should put them in every room in the house, and in every house in the village, and in every village in the whole wide world.
I wonder if I'll really like firepoles if I go home. Well, I think I would. I liked them here. So, I'll like them there. I wonder if anyone will ever make a trampoline.
I'm supposed to be writing a goodbye, but I don't really know how to do that. I don't want to say goodbye to you ever. I don't think I have to, really. Even if I don't have prayer beads or memories, I'm still your granddaughter. You're one of the people I can't ever really forget. Everything at home is because you were there, too. Thank you for daddy and Uncle Bumi and Aunt Kya, and the island you made us, and Republic City, and the world. I love all of them more than anything, even though I haven't seen them in a really long time.
If I go away, you have to take over my part in the art club. And make sure Raven doesn't eat alone at lunch. And sneak Momo treats when he's not supposed to have any, either.
Sorry. I did that, too.
And feed Prince Petunia and Princess Phillip.
Also I guess people are allowed to use my cup. The one Aunt Toph made for me, my first Christmas. But only people I like can use it. So you can use it, and everyone in the house, but you can never let Mr. Vegeta use it.
I know you never really liked Loki, but you should keep the airbending balls. They're fun to play with. If you practice, you can learn to make music. I'm still getting the hang of it. I think if I ever go home, I'd like to dream about them sometime. And everyone here.
You're upstairs in your room now and we're going to go out and play, so I have to end this here. I'm going to fly higher than you today, okay? Or I'll try anyway.
Love,
Ikki
p.s. If I don't fly higher than you today, I'll do it tomorrow.
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Sifu Raine,
I used to really hate fractions. I never really hated number or counting things or that sort of math, but fractions just kind of seem unfair, you know? I don't like dividing things up. It used to be really hard and not as easy as adding or subtracting or multiplying. But that was a long time ago, now, I guess. I don't mind it so much now, and you explained it so it makes more sense.
Back at home, I used to do my lessons with Jinora and Meelo, and daddy taught most of them, although sometimes the air acolytes did. It just depended. Here, I've been tutored alone with you and then had classes at the school. It's always been a little weird to have people teaching just me, alone. At home, Jinora and Meelo were always there. Jinora was always the one who did things best, too. Or I guess that's the feeling I had, or how she acted, and I guess it annoyed me sometimes because she and Meelo would tease me and they'd never help me tease the other one of them, and that felt as unfair as fractions.
I miss them teasing me and not taking me seriously, though. Because even though I hated it, I miss them. And the times they teased me. And the times they didn't.
I'm really bad at these, 'cause I don't know what to say. You've been here even longer than me, or grandpa. How many of these letters have you read? Am I doing it wrong? I mean, is this the worst one you've read or is it in the middle? Would I get a passing grade if we got graded on these? I kind of just write whatever comes to mind because I don't have any better ideas, but I'm not sure if that's right or not. If I never go home, I guess it won't really matter?
I wanted to thank you for teaching me, though, in this letter. Back when grandpa and Katara asked you to tutor me, you did, and you've taught us at school ever since. I'm sorry for sometimes complaining about breaks ending, but I think that's kinda normal. I like holidays, but it's not like I don't like school. I do like going and learning and playing around, even if I'm younger than most of the other people who go to school.
The book is something Lee gave me. I like to look at it because the paintings feel really calm somehow, you know? When you're upset, looking at them can calm you down. I don't know if you get upset sometimes, because I've never really seen you mad or sad, or you've hid it if you have been, but I think that you'd treat the book best so I want you to have it.
I think you're probably the best teacher I've ever had. Don't tell daddy, if you ever meet him.
Love,
Ikki
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I'd also like a letter if you feel up for it/feel she would leave one for Eley. ;;
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Take care, and good luck.
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if you want
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Can Sophie have a letter, please?
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and I'll get a post up tomorrow too ok love <3
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Raven,
Hi! You know, I've read lots of these letters. The letters people write you, just in case. I never wrote any the last time I was gone, for that small amount of time. I don't know if they're good things or bad things. I keep all the ones people have given me in my chest, the toy chest we got for me all the way last year. The one with flowers and butterflies. I like to read them sometimes, but I don't know if everyone else does. Or if you do.
But I thought maybe I should write the letters, because sometimes no one has them and they're just gone, and that isn't any better.
And if I go away, there's someone who won't. I think Soren would probably fly to you and Kyle. I could be wrong, but we've been together for almost two years. It'll be two years in October. So, I don't think I am. I have to be responsible and write about him because that's what a trainer does! So, you should know he likes dried apple slices. Or normal ones. Like Momo does, but he's better about them. And bird seed, and other dried fruits. He likes to do simulations at the Battledome. He likes to go flying together, and play pranks, but they're all really fun ones, so I don't think they should all be stopped.
He's friends with Ques, Fenimore's bird, and Momo and Appa and lots of people. But I think you know lots of that. I've said, haven't I?
I wish if I went home I could take him with me. I don't like thinking about going back to a place without Soren. He's my best friend, and my partner, and I'm not supposed to leave him behind. But no matter what, he's going to stay here, like Sophie and Kyle and Linda and the others. So if I do leave him behind, I don't want to leave him alone.
There's lots of people I don't want to leave behind, and you're one of them. Even so, sometimes I kinda wish I could go home. I almost don't remember what Rohan looks like. I only knew him for a few weeks two years ago, you know? He was so tiny and cute. And I haven't talked to mommy or daddy or Jinora or Meelo or my uncle or aunt or any of them for so long. But I also kinda wish I won't, because grandpa is here, and Katara, and you, and Soren, and everyone else. I think it'd be best if everyone could just live together somewhere, in a world we could make for ourselves, or if we could all live at our homes with lots and lots of doors, all different color ones, where we could walk through and visit one another any time. I'd want the door to home to be one with butterflies on it. I think your door would have feathers.
I dunno what to say in this really. I've read lots of goodbye letters, but they're all different. I guess you say what you didn't say, but I've always told you what I think. I guess I never said all that about my family and home, but I didn't want anyone to be sad. If I had to say what I think about you, it's the same as always. We're friends, and I want to keep on eating lunch with you so you're not alone then, and I want to see you as a bird again and maybe go flying together.
Thanks for spending all the time with me that you do. I know sometimes people think I'm really annoying, but you've never said I am and I don't think you think I am.
If I go away, grandpa should give you this with the pendant you made me. If it doesn't go home with me. I always wear it since you gave it to me. If I go away, I hope that it makes you feel as safe as it makes me feel.
Grandpa will take over as co-president for me if I go away, too. I'll ask in his letter. Be sure to do lots of fun things, and tell Soren I love him every day, and make lots and lots and lots of new friends. Don't eat lunch alone.
Love,
Ikki
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If you want to write a letter, great! But if Sokka is not someone you would write a letter to, well, no stress. :)
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The letter itself that comes with these things is written on cute flowery stationary, with little drawings in the margins. ]
Uncle Sokka,
You haven't been here long. That's weird to say, because before you-you came here, you were here the entire time I was. The first day I was here you came and picked me up from the fountain. I like to play there, and that's the first thing I did here. You took me to the store and let me have a soda and chocolate - that's the first time I had either. Well, we have soda at home, but it's not like the soda here. I like the way the bubbles feel in my mouth.
You did a lot of things you don't remember. Did I ever tell you my glider and boomerang were made by you? They both were.
But you've done things you do remember, too. So I should talk about those. Thanks for looking out for me when everyone went on the draft. You told me silly stories. You've been Uncle Sokka, and I missed you when you were gone. If I go away, I'll miss you again, I think.
I never told you about your future even though you asked. So I'll tell you it now, although it's a secret. You're going to become even greater than you are now. You'll be the Southern Water Tribe representative on the United Republic Council. The Council's chairman, even. They're going to make a big, big statue of you. It's at home, right in front of the Southern Water Tribe Cultural Center. You're holding your boomerang up, and I've always thought it looks really cool.
It's not as cool as you are. I like talking to you and playing with you better than I ever liked looking at a statue.
You're the kind of person people build statues of, huh? I mean, we have that head of you out in front of the house. I guess Aunt Toph made it because of an experiment, but no one ever really told me the full story about that. I like it, anyway. It's fun to see how people react when I say our house is easy to find 'cause my uncle's head is out front.
Usually they make weird faces or look at me like I'm crazy.
I think you can probably tell people our house is easy to find 'cause your head is out front. I bet that'd get weird faces, too.
Do you think someday someone will build a statue of me? I think I'd like that. Everyone else in my family is really good at getting statues of them built. So, maybe someday I'll do something worthy of a statue, too. I don't now what that will be. Maybe I will find a princess and save her, or else I will save a kingdom, or something exciting like that. But after I do that, I hope you get to see my statue, and you can tell me if you think it looks cool or not.
Maybe you can also give me tips about how to pose for a statue properly. Maybe I will ask you about it tomorrow.
I always wanted to meet you and spend time with you. Thanks for letting me do that.
And thanks for always giving me snacks even when I wasn't supposed to be having them exactly.
Love,
Ikki
Your secret is safe with Uncle Sokka forever
[ ooc: I wish we got to RP more. Hopefully in the future!! ]
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If you would like to write a letter for Katara from Ikki, go right ahead. If it is too much, just let me know and I will handwave all the things. [/hug]
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Katara,
The flowers all came up, just like you said they would. I'm writing this from my desk. From my desk, if I sit right, I can see them outside my window. I think it's good we planted them there. They'll go away soon, until they bloom again next year, but ever since they came up I've been able to lean outside in the mornings to see them. I've been watering them carefully, too. So they're okay. And weeding.
I guess people don't like weeding, but I don't mind it. We used to do chores at home, like we do here. I told you once we grew almost all our own food in greenhouses at the island, right? Or maybe I didn't. You didn't ask a lot about home, and I've gotten better at not saying. But either way, that's what we did. Sometimes we'd have to help with the weeding. I never actually minded it, although I liked playing better. But working with the other air nomads and Jinora and Meelo and everyone wasn't bad. Although Meelo pulled a few plants instead of weeds.
I did that once, on accident, but I never made the same mistake twice about weeds and plants. Not that one, anyway.
Thanks for planting those with me, Katara. I've said that before, but I still want to say it again.
These are supposed to be goodbye letters, but I'm still bad at them. It's partly because I dunno how to say goodbye except just saying it, but that doesn't feel right. But it's partly just that I don't want to say goodbye. Even though you're one of the only people who will be there if I go back to that place, at least some version of you. It won't be you-you. Like I won't be me-me.
I think I get why that makes you sad, now. I don't want to give up these parts of me, ever. The me who's best friends with Soren and who's the best airbending student in Luceti. Who eats lunch with Raven and leads the Art Club and gardens with you. Going home doesn't just mean going home, does it? It means giving up everything else, too, or that's what we're always told, and what we know.
I don't want to think that I'll give these things up if I ever go home. I want to think I won't mind fractions any longer, and I'll have all the skills I got here, or at least I'll still be changed the way all of you changed me. I learned not to say the first thing to come to mind. I have, really! Sometimes it's still hard, and sometimes it's impossible, but I think I'm better at it. I didn't tell Uncle Sokka a single thing about his future.
I'm sorry I told you about yours, what I did, if that hurt you. I think I get it now.
But let me tell you about your future in a way that won't hurt. I'm going to be a fortune teller. Your future holds watering the flowers with me after you get up. We'll eat breakfast Grandpa made and I'll ask you to go on a picnic with me, and even though you're busy, I think you'll say yes, so we will go on one. And I'll ask you to tell me a story and you will.
I guess if you're reading this now, it's your past. But as I'm writing it, it's your future.
I think that sort of future is a nice thing. I want to have lots of future times with you and everyone. I don't really mind what we do. I like every day in this house, the house Uncle Sokka made for us, and I don't want them to end. Even so, I miss Air Temple Island and my parents and my siblings. I don't think either place is any less home. I don't know what I'd do if someone gave me a choice of going or staying.
I think the best answer is if we make a brand new world. With doors. I wrote about this a little bit ago, in another letter. We all go home, and then we build magical doors of rainbows and starlight and hope. And then when we open them, we can step through into another world, someone else's world, or someone else's time. And then we can all stay together even as we all go home. No one would have to leave anyone else ever again.
But I guess people do leave, even if they go home. If I go home, I'm going back to my family and the island, and I know I'll be okay. But I think my heart will miss everyone here. Or I know it will. I wonder how that works, but I don't really want to find out.
I said I'm bad at these letters, and I am. Sorry, Katara.
I love you like a tree and not a flower. I guess that doesn't make sense except that flowers go away, for a little while every year. I think you've always been a tree. When I'm around you, I feel like I have roots and won't blow away. I've never minded blowing away, but I think having roots is good, too.
I'll remember about rainstorms on the window. Even if I forget, you'll tell it to me again.
Love,
Ikki
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letter writing is up to you since he technically has been crashing at the avatar house, but it can be handwaved either way.
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